My Rating: ★★★★★
Genre(s): New adult; Romance
Plot: [Copied from Goodreads] Sometimes it is the one who loves you who hurts you the most. Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up—she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true. Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating” rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place. As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan—her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened. It Ends With Us is an unforgettable tale of love that comes at the ultimate price
Note: There are spoilers after this point. If you do not wish to have this book spoiled for you, do not read this review! I will be posting my spoiler-free review soon.
Seriously stop reading unless you want to be spoiled.
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Okay here we go.
- I couldn’t put this book down
- Colleen did an amazing job writing about a very real, very sensitive subject
- Allysa and Marshall
- I actually felt like I was in this book
- I cried. Books don’t make me cry.
- Lily is my fave girl name
- There are too many things for a pro/con list, so just see my thoughts below
- I wanted to like Ryle, and I hate that
- I hate Colleen for putting Lily through what she did
- “As his daughter, I loved him. But as a human, I hated him.”
- “I am a brave and bold businesswoman with zero fucks to give for men in scrubs.”
- “Mom: A doctor, Lily? AND your own business? I want to be you when I grow up.”
- “All humans make mistakes. What determines a person’s character aren’t the mistakes we make. It’s how we take those mistakes and turn them into lessons rather than excuses.
- “Meet Lily. My blasphemous whore.”
- “Lily, I would marry the hell out of you.”
- “Five minutes. That’s all it takes to completely destroy a person.”
- “Uncles, Lily. We’re gonna be uncles.”
- “Lily, there’s a… do you realize you’re pregnant?”
- “You’re still my favorite person, Lily. Always will be.”
- “Sometimes even grown women need their mother’s comfort so we can just take a break from having to be strong all the time.”
- “Mom, I want to be you when I grow up.”
- “And as hard as the choice is, we break the pattern before the pattern breaks us.”
- “You can stop swimming now, Lily. We finally reached the shore.”
- “Life is a funny thing. We only get so many years to live it, so we have to do everything we can to make sure those years are as full as they can be. We shouldn’t waste time on things that might happen someday, or maybe even never.”
- “In the future . . . if by some miracle you ever find yourself in the position to fall in love again . . . fall in love with me.”
My Thoughts: As with my previous review, I will start with my reading log for this book. It sort of speaks for itself:
Good, now that I got that out of the way, I can attempt to form a comprehensible stream of words here. I keep typing out a reaction, and then highlighting and deleting it all. My words cannot do Colleen’s words justice. I have never, ever said this about a book before, but this. book. is. life. changing.
First of all, books don’t make me cry. I can think of maybe five books that have ever made me cry, like real sobs, and one of them was my book while I was writing it so it doesn’t even count. But this book is so fricking real. So when I say that the end of this book had me sobbing, I want you to understand the full meaning behind this statement.
I’ve waited for It Ends With Us basically since Colleen first announced it. As an avid CoHort, anything that Colleen writes automatically ends up on my shelf. I avoided reading anything about it as much as I could. I knew, going into it, that it was hard for her to write, and that something about cow poo happened. That’s it. I didn’t even read the back of the book. I wanted to be surprised.
But surprised isn’t the word I would use. Colleen took a taboo subject– a very real, very important taboo subject– and gave a very detailed version of it. She wanted to show the readers what an honest example of an abusive relationship looked like. And you know what? It worked. At first, I found myself hoping Lily would forgive Ryle. He was beautiful, successful, and beautiful (ha). But after a while, I started to forget all of the good times they had. I started to see the cycle. I started to hate him. Even after the truth about Emerson came out, I still couldn’t find it in me to forgive him.
I could feel Lily’s emotions deep in my chest. I hurt for her, I hated for her, I felt everything for her. Through all of the twists and turns of their relationship, I felt as though it was a story about myself. It has been years since I was in an abusive relationship. I was a teenager then, and didn’t know that I could easily just get out at that age and move on. But the things Lily went through, in both childhood and adulthood, hit me like a ton of bricks. The happy moments were great, but the bad moments were overpowering.
And Colleen nailed that.
Lily’s ultimate decision to divorce Ryle was what I wanted to read. I would have screamed and threw the book and bought a plane ticket to Colleen’s next signing so I could scream at her for hurting Lily and the baby like that.
This book was an eye-opening punch to the face. In her note from the author, Colleen addressed the fact that she knows not every relationship is like this, but I feel like she did a really careful and thorough job conveying the message she was trying to convey. This was a hard subject to cover, and totally out of her element, and I’m proud of Colleen for stepping over a boundary to get this message out.
I feel like I say this about everything Colleen writes, but this book was nothing short of amazing. Honestly, it could be a list of gibberish on the back of a greasy fast food bag and I would still read anything she wrote/co-wrote/had an idea about once on the toilet. But this book is so much more than that.
I can’t wait to see what’s in store for Colleen. I feel like this book hits a major milestone for her as an author, and I’m so proud of her.
I would recommend this book again and again and again.
Read it, please.