Tonight he asked me if I'm okay I thought for a moment I said I was I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not I told him I like myself better medicated That's only the half of it I'm afraid of myself Afraid of my blackouts Of my anger Of how the kids are going [...]
I say these words nearly every night. I should be sleeping. But instead, I'm up scrolling my newsfeeds, refreshing over and over even though I know it's 2am and none of my friends are awake. I should be sleeping. But instead, I'm up worrying about bills and how I'm not contributing enough to this family [...]
I'm Renae McBrian I'm 25, a mom, a reader, and a writer. I post reviews and book recs and random posts about my writing. I am currently working on my second novel, and I will post updates about that on here, but it'll be very rare that I post any actual content from my book [...]
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Again and again and again, I find myself writing these words. I'll get a little better, and then I'll get a lot worse. My mental health is deteriorating so quickly and I don't know how to salvage what's left. I can't afford therapy or medication. I'm too fucking depressed to go outside and get fresh [...]
Life, my internship, a huge dump of ARCs, and more life have kept me from keeping up with my reviews! Hopefully I'll get there soon!
Okay, so I got pretty behind on my reviews because I just sort of packed in the books at the end of 2016 and they call got all jumbled so I never got around to doing them. Soooo, I'm going to make Sunday my official book review dump day. If I forget to review a [...]